I’m in a season where I feel like there is so much on my plate and I am not doing any of it well. It feels like I’m just getting by and I am not doing enough in the areas that are most important to me.
I can’t seem to get out the door without being in a mad rush. I can’t get my girls dressed and ready without a fight. Any meal I make feels like it’s thrown together and my house never feels kept up. The laundry piles up faster than I ever thought possible. I can’t remember the last day that I didn’t lose my patience. My morning devotions are interrupted more often than not. A quiet morning that I may have is followed by whining and immediate requests. My disciplining doesn’t seem to work for more than five minutes and I don’t feel like I can give the individual attention need to each of my three girls and to my husband.
I feel stretched so thin. I tell my husband all the time that I just can’t keep up. I wonder when or if I’ll ever feel able to give my attention to anything more than making sure everyone is fed and healthy.
Through it all, I’m thankful for a God who is greater. He knows I’m limited, but He is limitless. I’m thankful that He chose my kids for me, knowing that I would be the Mom that they would need to raise them well, even when it doesn’t feel like I’m doing a good enough job. I’m thankful that He not only fills the gaps when I feel that I am not enough, but that He is MORE than ENOUGH. He is enough for me. He is enough for my kids. He is enough for my husband. He is enough when I feel so scattered and impatient. He is enough when I feel like I’ve failed over and over again.
I hope that in our moments of feeling like we’ve failed because we are not doing enough, that we might take a second to look up, and praise the One who sees us in each moment. He sees us and He loves us the same. The One who looks upon His children with tender eyes, waiting for us to ask for His help in moments where we realize we are not enough. We will never be enough. Only HE is ENOUGH!
Spot on, my dear. Only God is enough to sustain us and equip us for each day we face. Keep your head up and trust He will help you navigate every single thing He puts on your plate. One day at a time. Only He is enough.